Stuck in the Middle

Do you ever feel like the “new kid”, or the outsider looking in???  I guess that is how I feel with blogging right now.  I feel like I am stuck, in both blogs, really.  On my first blog, I have been absent and changed so much, that while I still communicate with the same people, and they are people I really adore, I feel like I don’t fit in anymore.  Like so much has changed, that maybe these people can’t relate anymore…

And then on the new blog, I am the newbie.  I have followed quite a few blogs by just reading and using my google reader, but I didn’t really follow, communicate, or interact with these people, even though I feel like I kinda knew them, and they are the reason I switched over to the new blogsite.  So again, I am just watching, observing and trying to engage in some sort of conversation with people.

People that I know IRL will be the first to tell you I am usually not shy once I get to know someone.  In fact, I will be the first one doing something silly or crazy once I feel comfortable with you.  But until I feel “safe”, I am super guarded, and very shy.  Totally not myself, really.  So if I seem a little standoffish, just now I am testing things out, and really just feeling my way through things.  In a matter of time, I will be busting out jokes and one liners, and letting you in on all the crazy tequila shooting shenanigans (kidding…. Kinda).  But until then, I am just going to take it all in and get to know everyone .