Closure

Lets just say I learned a lot on Sunday.  I learned that 2011 was NOT my year... I hurt a lot of people and lost a really great friend.  I have mentioned the situation previously, and here is all I am going to say on it.  I hurt a really great person, by being undecisive.  I do think that ultimately I made the right decision, but the way I did it hurt, and it burned a huge bridge in my life.  One I miss everyday.

I had the opportunity to make it right on Sunday, and after 3mos of no contact, I tried.  My friend's daughter spends every other weekend with her dad, in the same small town the above-mentioned friend lives.  I didn't know this until Friday, when she asked if I would make the drive to get L.  I of course said yes.  I reached out to the other friend, and even though I was in Ptown for over an hr, and let him know where I would be, I still have heard nothing.

Do I deserve this?  Yep.  Looking back I wish I would have made things easier, cleaner.  But I didn't, and I ended up losing one of my best friends.  I know he is only doing what he has to do, but I made myself a promise.  If he didn't show up Sunday, that was it.  No more drunken txts or calls, no more emails.  I had extended my branch, and if he hasn't healed enough to accept, then that is my issue, not his.  I wish things were different, and in a way, the tables have turned.  He tried for months to see me, talk to me, get me to open up, and I refused.  Now it was my turn, and in a way I know it was payback for him not to respond.  But I am not angry.  I am hurt, but not angry.

They say Karma is a Bitch... well, I met her, and let me tell you, it isn't a lie...