I feel like I am being too hard on J at times. I seriously do not have the patience I used to, and I feel like I am too short tempered to be the woman he deserves. The other night, I had the worst migraine, and while we were watching tv, he decided he wanted to chat with me. He usually is someone that keeps to himself, and normally I would have been flattered that he wants my opinion and values my insight on things. However, with a migraine, PMS, etc, I was so short with him.
He is my very best friend, and I don't know what it is lately, but I feel like the worst woman ever. He deserves me to listen, not be grouchy, and give him advice, if that is what he asks for. I am so proud of him, and I love him more than anything, so why is it so hard for me to be patient and not so crabby all the time??? Is it the weird weather, the seasons, the fact that I am not taking bc anymore (I thought that maybe my body is trying to re-figure itself out after having hormones daily for the past 13yrs)... I don't know what it is, but I need to relax and enjoy the time I have with him more. I worked so hard to get us back here, and the last thing I want to be is a capital B and lose him all over again....
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