I’m having a rough day. I don’t like change, but I can usually adapt pretty well. Today I just feel like a mess.
J moved out of the condo today… the condo we bought together 5yrs ago this weekend. I know that since we are looking at getting a place together in the next couple of months, I shouldn’t feel so… crappy. This is good for us, a fresh start, a brand new start in a serious way. I am so excited for this.
But I can’t help but be sad at the same time. Locking that door for the last time was so painful. I made it though unloading my car, lunch and dropping him off without tears. The minute I got off of his road… tears. He is staying with his dad, I am officially back at home (I’ve never moved out or stopped paying rent here, I just wasn’t here much the past 4mos). It’s so weird not being with him today. I called him, just bc we were only apart for a couple of hours, but I miss him. It’s so much different than 2yrs ago… we are apart, but not finished.
I just feel all over the place, and I know this is all over the place… if you can make sense of this, you are better than I am.
Change is hard and change is never without sacrifice. Hang in there - it will get better.
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