Thinking "Out Loud" / Day 5

When do you feel like enough is enough?  Like you’ve tried to be a good friend, and that person just won’t budge? 

I know that this situation won’t make any sense to most of you, and that is fine.  This is more for myself, as I just need to get back to basics and write for me.

I always say I’ve “been through a lot”, and while that may be true, I think it was my escape/defense mechanism.  An excuse as to why I thought I was “damaged goods”.  I’ve been working on that, trying to let go of whatever I feel like is holding me back. 

But approx. 2 yrs ago, I was not in a good place.  My divorce was final in Sept, and I was bound and determined he would change his mind, which he did, just not until much later.  I was still living at home, and as much as I thought I loved my job, I didn’t.  So a relationship was not something I was ready to jump into.  Friendship… sure, but none of the flowers and nonsense.

I just wish that even though things didn’t work out the way that others thought they would, that both parties could act like adults and at least be thankful for what did form… two people who didn’t know each other became friends, were brought into each other’s lives.  And even though it may not be what one person wanted, it happened for a reason.  It always does…