Love for my "Woozie"

‘… and she loved a boy very, very much– even more than she loved herself.’ ~Shel Silverstein, The Giving Tree

I think this quote was in an email, or maybe another blogger linked to it (somehow I got to this website), and it made me stop what I was doing/reading, and immediately start thinking about W, even though it could be interpreted other ways.

J will tell you, when I first found out my baby sister was pregnant, I was not supportive.  I knew she wasn't ready, and thought for sure it was the worst thing that could happen to her.  I am def not pro-choice, so when she decided to keep it, I was happy about that, and knew it was something we would get through as a family.  J reminded me that we had the same feelings when his younger brother told us his gf was pregnant, and how much we all loved L, and could not imagine life without her.  He told me over and over it would be the same with W.

The day he was born, my life was forever changed.  That baby had me wrapped around his finger before he even cried for the first time.  I lived at home, as did my sister, and for the first 18months of his life, I would help rock him to sleep, and get up early to snuggle with him.  I took my turns getting up with him at night, and rocking him when he was sick.

J and I are pretty set on not having children.  My own mother told me she has never really seen a "maternal" instinct in me, until W was born.  I babysat many children when I was younger, and someday thought I might be a mom, but something clicked a few years back.

Anyway, if anything were to happen to W, I wouldn't be able to live...that little boy has me wrapped around his finger, but he is wrapped around my heart.  He stays with us every Tues night, and I still get up with him.  I get up early to make breakfast, get him dressed, and multiple times a night giving him his milk and changing him.  Never in a million years did I think I would sacrifice sleep for anyone, but having that little boy lay his head on my chest, or call out for "Ber" makes my heart melt.

I would put pics in here, but we all know the blog is loaded with pics of my Woozie, and I don't want to bore you any further :)